Complete Emptiness

I had once thought

that maybe this was life.

No love, no hate, no feelings.

My deepest feelings would never be shared.

I was so frightened;

I didn't know what to do.

Scared of this one man all my life.

Face my fear, I told myself!

But it's so hard, so confusing.

Do you know what it's like

to wonder in darkness?

It never stops, never ends.

It goes on like a story with no ending.

Do you know how it feels

to be afraid of something

that you can't do anything about?

That you didn't ask for or even think about?

Do you know what it's like? Do you know how it feels?

It's complete and pure emptiness.